Last night I wrote on my Facebook wall a pretty vulnerable post. It was snot-city (meaning I was ugly crying all over the place) as I tapped into this deep part of myself when looking at Summer of Soul. We’re in the final days of early bird pricing, and full disclosure: we haven’t met our minimum numbers yet, so instead of going into the roundy round cycle of frustration or beration (I am my harshest critic), I turned to Spirit for some guidance.

Even though it was a personal share, I thought I’d post about it here as well. I really pride myself on being authentic and transparent about my process, and this is another chapter of that same story. I really do put my heart into every single thing that I do, and my people really matter to me. So without further ado, here is the post I shared last night on my wall:

It’s Sunday night, and the tears are flowing…

You know when you look within and you tap into something so deep, and so true, that had remained unexamined, and it all just rushes through you….? That’s what just hit me.

This week, I’m going into the end of my early bird promotion of Summer of Soul. I decided to pull a card to have an idea of what to expect. I pulled this one… twice even… and it asked me WHY and to examine my intentions…

I started putting SOS together last fall, and I’ll be honest, I can’t even recall how it came to be. I know that each of the presenters came from Divine nudges, and that it all just came together sort of on its own. But why I started it in the first place? That became a bit lost.

So tonight, I journalled… and I got a lot of the superficial stuff out of the way. Honestly, even the stuff that’s in the copy – the idea of “regular” business owners benefiting from the woo, and about “spiritual” business owners needing some of the practicality so they can thrive… the idea that online entrepreneurship can be lonely, and we need a space to connect… all of that is TRUE, but it’s SURFACE. I’d written about wanting to create a safe space where women could go deep and know everything was taken care of… and my husband asked “What does that mean to you… ‘go deep’…?” so I wrote on that, and this is what came out:

I want to create a space where women feel safe to look at their shit. Where they can see how their biases may be what’s holding them back, and for them to be willing to try something new. I want them to be free to release, to make room to call in all the stuff they dream of, in their lives, or their businesses. I want them to connect, and reconnect. To create an experience that inspires and revives. Where they can PLAY and be silly. Where they feel safe to let go, and embrace the gloriousness that they are.

I want them to know love.

I want to fuel their souls so they can go out and change the world. I want to use the 4 days to start a ripple effect… a chain reaction, that will touch more lives than I could ever dream of.

It’s not just a retreat. It’s a catalyst for change. It’s the start of a revolution.

And it begins with me.